We never had nothing handed took nothing for granted

I'm willing to bet you gave up hope on this little blog of mine, especially now. I won't tell you I'm writing this entry about you, we both know I have far too much pride for my own good. I just think it'd be cool if you happened to nonchalantly stumb upon this, like a wierd twist of fate or trickery. I just need to vent and express where my head's at in all this mess. I'm not one to usually let things effect me too deep, ya know? This for some reason is getting to me, maybe because I thought you'd strive harder to maintain our friendship. It still eats away at me how you'd hold a guy who doesn't give you the time of day so highly. Even when I have all this hostility and anger brewing inside me I can still swallow my pride and say you deserve so much better. You haven't even tried to explain your position, not at all. I don't know if I have it in me to fight this, maybe if you showed me it was worth fighting for. I want to cross this battle line without grinding my teeth. Who will go to the concert with me now? Hahaha