I'll keep singing this lie if you keep believing it..

April fool's day is like a lying girl's christmas, you get to unwrap one lie after the other and not give it a second thought. I don't condone lying, I've just grown accustomed to concealing true idenitys. It's nothing to brag about really it's just that natalie portman makes it look so fun in garden state. I lie about stupid shit and then a mere two seconds later i'll admit i made it up. No harm every really comes with it, well not yet at least. *Knocks on wood*. I've seemd to have gotten myself into a bit of a pickle, I guess I never really took my mother's advice when she told me "There are times when keeping a secret is essential to having close relationships with people." Okay so my mother isn't really that insightful, well let me cut her some slack and say we never really have deep mother-daughter conversations that result in advice. My mouth is like a floodgate and once it's triggered things come pouring out into the victim's ears. I try and stop myself but it seems to be at the point of no return. I'm working on this, please entrust in that much. I know you given me 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and fifth chances but who is keeping score really? I've come to realize I'm not as good of a friend as I initally thought. Throw me a line, I'm changing my ways. I hope you know this post wasn't a joke and prior to popular thought I'm actually being honest. I'm actually admitting my faults instead of jolting in the other direction. I hope you read this and understand a little bit better. Ps sorry my last post sucked ;/