Oh how I know you are e-a-t-i-n-g all of this up, the tables have turned and you carefully distributed their position. Flashback a year ago and you were the one lacking a backbone. I forget your existence sometimes, I almost convince myself you were a prolonged daydream that ended unfinished. I am not ashamed to applaud you for being stronger than I remembered. All of this time apart has done you justice. My soul shakes with emphasis around the stomach area. I am setting myself up for the biggest upset in little league history, I haven't made it to the big leagues yet, delegate me some spare time. Why is it that whenever I am in your presence I feel lost and flabbergasted. You'd think little old cyinicical me would've gained an ounce of knowledge from this experience. I caved and called you out, I made the first move, I can't seem to let the one good thing that happened to me go. I might not like you, maybe the idea of some one with your stature just seems to fit right now. I can't distinguish between the two. I might call you up soon, I need closure or whatever it's called.
Thanks for the kindness you bestowed on me this weekend. It was a great suprise seeing you again. I know my tongue couldn't spit out a single syllable your direction but put the blame on my brain, it couldn't string together anything witty enough.
On a less painful note, Caitlin and I experienced the most insane, chaotic, extreme, instense event this weekend. Clarity was blew my direction like a hurricane in the gulf. I love you Kimberley, you make sense of all the baggage I don't have enough cargo space for. Oh and andru, I've grown to love and cherish all of your quirky traits, you are truly a one of a fucking kind original human being. I cannot wait to visit you in orlando come summer.
This blog is freakishly long and for good reason, happy mother's day! I bought the Cab's new CD and it is poppy and delightful. I am determined to get very aquainted with all the bands playing on may 22nd, which will be the most amazing concert ever held. FTSK'S new CD 'underdog alma mater' is superb as well, hoorah!
tried to make you miss me but you wouldn't oblige
so I said, "get out
yeah, get the fuck out"
the whiskey on my breath started to fall from my eyes
just like a rain cloud
yeah, I'm a dark cloud
I never really ever meant to be
presenting myself so desperately
it's not the first time
and I should know better
if I thought it'd make you stay
I would chop off both your legs
but knowing you you'd find a way to keep on leaving
well don't leave cause all I want is you to just pretend to feel it
or I guess I don't
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