"I would never want to belong to any club that would have someone like me for a member."

Gathering up wingspan and getting into the disney spirit. Tomorrow at 5PM I will be Mouse house bound finally! I cannot wait to head to the airport, I eat up all the concentrated passerbys. Airports are so exciting. Airplanes are too but they make a girl who has a hole in her eardrum wish she were never born. I credit this is as the last weigand family hoorah! The last sense of togetherness as preteens, as kids. Come next summer i'll be leaving the nest and venturing off into the real world. I think i'm ready to conquer my fears and become a full blown travelista, fashionista or whatever. I can feel my heartbeat exploding through my retinas and penetrating eagerly down my spinalcord. I watched Annie Hall for the first time last night, made me fall even more head over heels in love with woody allen. He is hands down the most quotable comedian to date. Not to mention Diane keaton was superb in her role as annie. It has easily become one of my all time favorite movies.

You've got nothing to lose but a visa card, happy meal, and Kotex with wings.

It's been well over a month since i've updated last. Lots has been going on, well at least i'd say so. I had a liplock and gridlock within a week span of one another. It's funny how karma can come in the form of a 19 year old boy with a lip ring. I'm a big girl, I can accept backlash. I've grown up a hell of a lot since our final tango. You had the final say but the curtain call was a weaved web full of intricate emotions and puzzeling mind games. For what it's worth i'm still more naive than when you left. Literally spot checking myself and making sure the boundry lines are still set in my periphial vision. Sick of being a pawn in a "man's" world. I keep spontaneously inviting complete strangers into my life, getting caught up in the brief moment, and getting pushed right back to start. It's easy to deny emotions, it's conquering them and dealing with your demons that's the brutal part. The dark has been comforting. I've been doing lots of damage control, for the places I need most. I'm reading 'White oleander', I heard the book was better than the movie, that will be very hard to top but we'll see. Already got a whole scroll length of pages highlited. I'm in a windowsill, baking motives. We play chess with our hearts, we gamble our souls, and ultimately we sell what's left of ourselves for a mere stint of so-called ecstasy.