It's either shun or be shunned.

Uhh I work tommorrow, yes on halloween, c'mon boast to me some more about how much that truely sucks. Seriously rue21 would remain open even if a tornado was knocking on it's door, threatening us all. Also, it's against company policy to dress up for the holiday.. so a double low blow. Today was randomly eventful.. ate homemade chinese food and embarked on some misc. shopping. Went to party city first to buy some last touches for Mary and Kelsey's cat costumes. Then, we went to target so i could finally buy the new cobra starship CD that i've been yearning to buy. Target is full of cute clothes.. it hurts to even look. Went to the book section, browsed for a bit, my mom bought me the post secret book. I bought this book:



Read the first 4 chapters thus far, it's amazing, honestly. It's such a breathe of fresh air from the mondane, the oridinary. I'd like to meet the author and give her a huge hug and a handwritten letter of admiration, so inspiring. She's a teacher at my dream college, nyu, pretty fucking cool.

Any how, then we went to krispy kreme, i was craving doughnuts so bad, tyler, kelsey's brother works there now, hahahaha. Bought doughnuts and came home. I've been reading since i've gotten home. Avery called me, we talked for a good bit while she was on break at work, i miss her so much. We're planning to hang friday because we are both off, killer. I really love unexpected phone calls.

I'm reflecting on my life and it's been one missed oppritunity after the other, i'm getting fed up. I need to stop talking about changing and actually do it. I need to better myself. I need to prepare for my future.

"I know i'm like a machine, but I still have dreams. And I know one day we will sleep for days."